>>167565As someone who felt like this all life and has enough time as a NEET to ruminate here are my thoughts:
Consciousness creates a feeling of self-importance. We feel like we have a soul, like life should be fair. But ultimately the mechanics of life aren't that different from animals: we are born with genes and environments we can't control. Whoever has the best conditions thrives. Life is so complex that luck plays a huge role. People use religion to cope with the mismatch of expectations and reality by believing they will have a better life after this one and that there is a higher meaning to life and someone watching over them.
For me growing up in solitude on video games and anime instead of human experiences encouraged this wish to be the main character and do something amazing. But the mismatch between desire and reality, with me being too average for greatness, resulted in depression and avoidance.
Ironically I think the key to a better life is to stop taking it so seriously and accept that life is not a video game that you can 100% and pick the ideal route in. There are no models for living life "the right way". No one wins at life. Everyone is aging. People are creating their personal hell by stressing over missing certain "life achievements". The idea that there exists this ideal life they are missing out creates a mental pain even when their life is fine. With the internet being open to everyone these people find like minded individuals and they all drag each other down together. Social media thrives on this misery because ideals and numbers are easily marketable and create enagement from people comparing themselves. Life is also so complex that it's foolish to think you can plan it out carefully. So much time is wasted thinking you need that ideal job or passion to find happiness when the key is to keep moving and expanding your horizon and take the opportunities as they come.
Saved Yakuza quote.
>Gahoole killed /tv/.>It was a board about men and theirs waifus.>But Gahoole took the mgtow pill, banned people and now he's gay.>We warned him. Man can be monk or gay. He choose the gay side.